"Do I Have Worth?"

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At home in a bubble room 
Made of broken faces and dying voices 
Safe, unharmed, walking the knife's edge 

 Balancing on a single foot 
Blade digging deep 
Slipping on the blood/ Holding on 

No, I tell a lie
The knife lies buried in my abdomen
The bubbles fall red-tinged
From the whispers of my lips 

 Don't flirt with danger 
But danger is none but folks 
Normal/ Passing me on the street 

Folks I reach out to touch
Eyes wide in disbelief 
My fingers pass right through them 
My words float past their eyes 

 I am impossible/ We
We are impossible and know it 
How can deserving live with the nonexistent?
How can a scream change the world 
When it dies on its way to my throat 

 I hunger for your false words 
They don't understand why a lie 
Would be worth more than nothingness 
I hunger for everything that cannot be mine 
I weep for what does not exist 

 I run to the lies 
I smile I dance for them 
A brief window into a foreign world 
A taste of what isn't meant for me 

 Living and raging is for them to revel in 
Not for those that lost their way 
Even before they found their path to life 

 Grasping at wisps of fancy 
Of broken dreams borrowed 
From other backyards/ Wandering 

 The last threads of sanity 
Unravelling/ Expelled 
In the dry heaving/ Listening 
For a death rattle that fails to come 

 - Title, Quote by Mr. Nutt, Unseen Academicals by Terry Pratchett. 

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