Navigating Solutions and Darkness

The story starts when it was hot and it was summer and... I had it all, I had him right there where I wanted him She came along, got him alone and let's hear the applause She took him faster than you could say "sabotage" I never saw it coming, wouldn't have suspected it I underestimated just who I was dealing with She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum She underestimated just who she was stealing from She's not a saint And she's not what you think She's an actress She's better known For the things that she does on the mattress Soon she's gonna find Stealing other people's toys On the playground won't make you many friends She should keep in mind She should keep in mind There is nothing I do better than revenge She looks at life like it's a party and she's on the list She looks at me like I'm a trend and she's so over it I think her ever-present frown is a little troubling She t...

You have a way of coming easily to me And when you take, you take the very best of me So I start a fight 'cause I need to feel something And you do what you want 'cause I'm not what you wanted Oh, what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through I've never been anywhere cold as you You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray And I stood there loving you and wished them all away And you come away with a great little story Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you Oh, what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day So, just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through I've never been anywhere cold as you You never did give a damn thing, honey, but I cried, cried for you And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you, died for y...

Soon this will feel like a distant dream.  Until then, may you rest in a deep and dreamless slumber. -  Elise,  Westworld The first Taylor Swift song I ever heard was when I was in 11th grade -  I'm Only Me When I'm With You. The song didn't mean much, except for having a lovely tune. It was only after I came to college that I truly discovered Taylor Swift. Friday night beneath the stars In a field behind your yard  You and I are paintin' pictures in the sky - I'm only Me When I'm With You, Taylor Swift I have a lot of problems with the singer herself - her yo-yoing on feminism, the appropriation of other identities in her songs... But her songs are often exactly what you need.  The Way I Loved You was a ranty favourite - this one must have seen hundreds of repeat. When you seem to slip through the same kinds of situations over and over again, songs like this tend to come back into relevance. I'm not a fan of the gender normative...