Navigating Solutions and Darkness

The self-doubt is crippling. 

One thing's for certain. It's going to get a little worse before it gets better. And I'd be able to live with that if I could get myself to fully believe that there really is light at the end of the tunnel. That things really are about to start looking up. 

I made a cup of coffee today and it was the hardest thing ever. 

My priority #1 is always whatever is right in front of my face, which is also why my brain thinks writing a blog post about it instead of actually doing those things is the most important thing right now. 

Today I'm wondering whomst the fuck I have to carry out a blood sacrifice to, just to have back a taste of what's normal again. 

  Hiding from the intangible dread, the inevitable doom, and the metallic taste of failure in my mouth.