Rejection
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Waiting For A Train
Soon this will feel like a distant dream. Until then, may you rest in a deep and dreamless slumber. - Elise, Westworld Soft as the fabric falls over my skin, I can't help but think this is how it should be - the only way it can be. Happiness, true happiness, is easily enough captured when you know where to look. And yet a shadow by my side reminds me, forever, that there is more to happiness than simply being happy. I found my happiness in an ocean of tears, and I was content to drown in it. I found joy in a mirage, laughter in silence, love in the shadow of a grave. I slipped, I fell, I closed my eyes and found what felt true. Hard, cold math comes to my rescue, and I bid it go away. Hie from here, dark fiend, come to burst bubbles and dreams. Tilt your head back, slip, slip into the spilled wishes. All the how I wishes, flitting from one pool of sunlight to another. How I, How I, How I wish I could fly. How I wish I'd never hurt again. How I w...
Throwback: Lyricalaise
Written September 22, 2010 A familiar brick road stretches out at my feet. It leads so far I can scarce see where. It's lined by cotton candy, so I know I hate it already. And goats stare at me from the roadside. Small wonder it's boring. I started off with a purse of gold. Now it's just a penny left. Not enough for a spicy chicken pizza. Not even pepsi, coz that's against my diet. I started off with a Heart of Smiles. And everynight I curl into a place I can never go, somewhere I can never be. It's an illusion, a dream, an angel smiling out at me through the clouds. Maybe that's why I grasp at it, like the child that wants the moon. But when I was a child, I didn't want the moon. I was sensible enough to know what it was, to know that it would be too much for me to handle. I can't help giving, it comes naturally to me. I can't help hurting, it comes naturally to giving. I can't help talking, because the angst rises up in rebellion at t...
Throwback: The Passing Whisper of the Wind
Written September 19, 2010 It was so effortless. Before I knew it, my world was spinning in a different direction. It was like my mind and the world around me were moving at different speeds. Things took time to sink in, and by the time they did, they'd faded away already. It took me a while to understand the pain. It took me longer to take that pain and turn it back on the source of it all. It took me a while to learn. And when I did; when the realization finally hit me, it was all I could do to sink down to the floor, and sob my heart out. I cried that night, because things like this happen only so often, and you're so much smarter if you know to grab it while you can. And because you're smarter if you know when to let it go, because you're too late for no fault of your own, and it doesn't really matter that everything's just right. And why? Because it was the right height, the right smile. The right edge, because there was no q...
Ashes of Winter: A Vile Wind
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Ashes of Winter Chapter 1: Ice Age
à´¸ാà´§ാà´°à´£ à´¨ിലയ്à´•്à´•് à´žാൻ à´•à´¥ തന്à´¨െ à´Žà´´ുà´¤ാൻ à´ªാà´Ÿു à´ªെà´Ÿുà´¨്à´¨ു. à´…à´ª്à´ªോà´´ാà´£് മലയാളത്à´¤ിൽ à´Žà´´ുà´¤ാൻ ഇറങ്à´™ുà´¨്നത്. à´Žà´¨്à´¤് à´šെà´¯്à´¯ാം, à´šിà´² കഥകൾ മലയാളത്à´¤ിൽ പറഞ്à´žà´²്à´²േ പറ്à´±ു? à´ª്à´°ായമാà´¯ി വന്നപ്à´ªോà´´ാà´£് à´Žà´¨്à´¨െà´ª്à´ªോà´²െ à´µേà´±െà´¯ും ആളുകൾ ഉണ്à´Ÿെà´¨്à´¨ു മനസ്à´¸ിà´²ാà´•്à´•ുà´¨്നത്. à´Žà´¨്à´¨െ മനസ്à´¸ിà´²ാകണമെà´™്à´•ിൽ à´šിലപ്à´ªോൾ à´¹ാà´°ി à´ªോà´Ÿ്à´Ÿà´±ിà´²െ Gilderoy Lockhart à´Žà´¨്à´¨ à´•à´¥ാà´ªാà´¤്à´°à´¤്à´¤െ à´¨ോà´•്à´•ിà´¯ാൽ മതിà´¯ാà´¯ിà´°ിà´•്à´•ും. "Overachiever" à´Žà´¨്à´¨ പദവി à´šെà´±ുà´ª്പത്à´¤ിà´²െ à´®േà´Ÿിà´š്à´š à´…à´¨േà´•ം à´•ുà´Ÿ്à´Ÿികൾ ഉണ്à´Ÿ്. അവരിൽ à´Žà´²്à´²ാവരും തന്à´¨െ മനസിà´²ാà´•്à´•ുà´¨്à´¨ു, à´•ുറച്à´šു à´¨ാൾ à´•à´´ിà´¯ുà´®്à´ªോà´´േà´•്à´•ും à´¬ാà´•്à´•ി à´Žà´²്à´²ാവരും catch up à´šെà´¯്à´¤ു à´Žà´¨്à´¨്. ഇത്à´°à´¯ും à´•ാà´²ം overachieve à´šെà´¯്à´¤ുà´•ൊà´£്à´Ÿിà´°ുà´¨്à´¨ à´•ുà´Ÿ്à´Ÿിà´¯ിà´ª്à´ªോൾ à´¬ാà´•്à´•ിà´¯ുà´³്ളവരുà´Ÿെ à´’à´ª്à´ªം à´ªോà´²ും à´¨ിൽക്à´•ാൻ à´ªാà´Ÿു à´ªെà´Ÿുà´¨്à´¨ു. à´ˆ സത്à´¯ം ഇന്à´¨െà´¨ിà´•്à´•ു മനസ്à´¸ിà´²ാà´¯ി, പക്à´·െ എൻ്à´±െ à´œീà´µിതത്à´¤ിൽ ഇത് ഇപ്à´ªോà´´ും മനസ്à´¸ിà´²ാà´•്à´•ാൻ à´¸ാà´§ിà´•്à´•ാà´¤്തവരുà´£്à´Ÿ്. à´…à´¤ുà´•ൊà´£്à´Ÿുതന്à´¨െ ഇപ്à´ªോà´´ും എൻ്à´±െ à´šെà´±ുà´ª്പത്à´¤ിà´²െ à´®ിà´Ÿുà´•്à´•ിà´¨്à´±െ à´•ാà´°്യവും പറഞ്ഞവർ ഇരിà´•്à´•ുà´¨്à´¨ു. à´¸ാഹചര്യങ്ങൾ à´®ാà´±ുംà´¤ോà´±ും നമ്മളും à´®ാà´±ാൻ à´…à´±ിയണം. à´Žà´¨ിà´•്à´•് പക്à´·െ à´ˆ à´•à´´ിà´µ് à´•ുറച്à´šു à´•ുറഞ്à´žു à´ªോà´¯ി. à´…à´¤ുà´•ൊà´£്à´Ÿാà´¯ിà´°ിà´•്à´•ാം à´ª്à´°ീà´¸്à´•ൂà´³ിà´²ും à´ª്à´°ൈമറി à´¸്à´•ൂà´³ിà´²ുà´®ൊà´•്à´•െ ഉണ്à´Ÿാà´¯ിà´°ുà´¨്à´¨ സഹപാà´ ികൾ പറയുà´¨്à´¨...