Throwback: Something I Once Knew

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Photo by Benjamin Behre on Unsplash
Written December 14, 2010

 Sometimes, weird things run wild. Those days, maybe you handle it. Maybe you don't. 

 There are some thoughts that aren't even said out loud. Not even to your reflection in the mirror. Saying them out loud would mean a loss of sanctity... it would mean exposing them to the differently structured minds of other people. 

 They won't understand. They never do.

 And when you do say it out loud, not even your reflection in the mirror is sympathetic. 

 Yes, it's time to move on.

 It's time to take this thing I know, and lock it away in a safe somewhere. And then set that safe on an island and set it adrift on an ocean; peaceful and calm as the glassy lake on a warm summer day.

 This thing I'm locking away involves a deep set belief grounded in pure Soul. It has a streak of white hot Hope on it, a Hope that's dangerous if set free.

 It's not the paths we traced to get to here that matter. It's that here, the now, that really matters. Not the routes, not the background, not the past. 

 It exists, and this is the last moment I will know of its existence. The moment will pass, and I will walk away, not looking back to see the island that floats away, not thinking of the burden it bears.

 The island floats fast for one of its size. The current is swift and ruthless, and soon my reason for existence is lost in the fogs of the ocean mist. I will not recognize it again, not even if I want to find it someday later. 

 That's the way it ought to be. 

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